Crossroad to surrender

Days with less fumble in my mind,
I choose the mumble of the my heart,
As soon I let go of the choice,
I stand at a crossroad of surrender,
To give up or to give in the time,
That has been ticking synced with my heartbeat,
I've heard aloud the decision,
But I'm just being so indecisive,
With this moment afloat in my eyes,
I want it to stay awake inside my head,
For as long I can see with my heart wide open,
For as far as I can go with my eyes absolutely closed.