Burden garden

As I enter the burden garden,
Around the neighbourhood,
The blues hit me hard,
Close to a heartbreak,
I fix my black scarf,
I witness the colors I haven't,
I awe at the brightest,
Smile at the prettiest,
Freeze the gaze to adore,
With less in my mind and,
More vividness in my heart,
I clasp the blooms,
To let go the glooms,
For the sake of love and happiness,
I forgot the verse of joy and purity,
With so much to have in my choice list,
I wonder what may I ask for my bucket list,
In the crowd of being the best,
I limited by edition to theirs,
But I overlooked the concept,
The ideal idea world obeys,
How long will I fake my best for theirs,
Now I know my real, my best.